Pretty Little Mess

how we met

2007-09-04T21:13:15Z

i thought i might enlighten you all to how we met.
it is a very unusual story and it seems like fate.

so...

it was friday june 1, 2007.
i went to this skate rat party in carlsbad, and i saw a bunch of people and i also saw kevin and his friend trever and some others.
so i was already drunk and a little high.
then we drank some moree...
then the cops came so we all hid.
and i hid with jenny kt kevin and trever...
ah flashed them and then the cops kicked us out so we all had to leave.
trever took my number from kevins phone and we talked.

sat june 2.
it was the calrsbad prom.
i didnt go to prom but i went to an after prom party and got all dressed up and drunk.
trever went to a spitz show and got all high.
so we talked when we were super fucked up.
you can imagine...

monday june 4.
so...trever and i talk some more.
and we hangout and get drunk with joe kt and jenny.
we danced in the parking lot.
he held my hand so i wouldnt fall and kissed me for the first time.
we went back to my house and after i lied to him he asked me out.
he saw through all my lies.

it was weird.
i ALWAYS think a lot and contemplate the person that i might start a relationship with.
but this one was spur of the moment and perfect.

fate?

for now.

my man.

2007-09-04T20:53:55Z

so today is our three month.
its so weird though.
i feel like we have been together for so long.
im so happy and content with him.
the mother wants to move in with her man and have me keep the condo and she will pay half of the rent but with utilities and everything it is still 1150 a month...
ah i dunno.
we are thinking of moving in with preston having my old room.
hahaha so funny.
no more days of me laying around in my undies.
ah man i just have to tell these things to someone.
im not good at keeping secrets these days and its hard for me to lie which is a biggg change.
im getting a tat on thurs.
soo excited.
love you all.
x
kendra

1wish4you @ 2006-12-05T21:41:00

2006-12-06T05:41:01Z

damn i wanna give up.
or get out of here for a while.

1wish4you @ 2006-11-03T21:01:00

2006-11-04T05:01:20Z

yeah.fuck you. you broke my heart.
and part of me knew you would. i wish i would have listened.
but part of me fell hard.
i guess it always hurts, but this time i had become attached to a familiar.
but why not with all the others?
i want my shit back. but the thing i want returned most, is something you will always have.
part of me will love you till my flesh turns to ashes.
maybe ill find at again.
or just compensate with this hole.
starting now, im starting over. i wont sleep with the next person i meet.

broken birthdays

2006-09-27T00:15:47Z

it breaks my heart that i cant be with you on your birthday.
i havent since you were 18...
four years.
and you havent since my 12th.
five years.
your my brother.
my best friend.
my rock.

this fucking sucks.

1wish4you @ 2006-09-18T14:55:00

2006-09-18T21:59:23Z

i dont think it hit me harder than when i saw you two together.
my life has changed.
i feel so fuckin lost now.
used.
broken.
i dont feel love anymore.
im just robotic.
then theres this kid, and for once i felt something again.
but he dosent even know.
just the way he looks at me.
and i feal something that i havent in months.
an actual feeling of attachment.
i dont even know him.

1wish4you @ 2006-08-28T20:52:00

2006-08-29T03:53:19Z

family doesnt mean blood.
keep the ones that mean a lot close.
they will always be there.
unconditional love is the only love that lasts eternally.
live and love selflessly.

boredd

2006-08-27T20:17:58Z

The longest survey you'll ever fill out! Do the world
a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends.... Do this because the person who sent it to you didn't sit here for ages for
nothing. Answer all the questions honestly, no lying
to avoid stuff.

Time started: 12:51

Full Name: Kendra Kapoliokeonaona Palomar

Single or Taken: single

Sex: female

Birthday: Jan 15

Siblings: one brother

Eye color: light brown

Shoe size: 6 1/2 -7

Height: 5'3

Innie or Outie: Innie

What are you wearing right now: U of Hawai'i sweatchirt & shorts

Job: Vons

Where do you live: san diego,CA

Righty or lefty: right

Can you make a dollar in change right now: nope

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Relationships
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Who are your closest friends: rachel,kayla,cera

Do you have a BF or GF?: nope

Best place to go for a date: night picnic on the beach
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Favorites...
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Favorite place to shop: Eletric Chair,Pin-up girls Clothing Co.,Red Balls, & Target

Color: red

Number(s): 15

Boys Name: i dunno..

Girls Name: Cecilia

Animal: Bengal Tiger

Drink: water, or Jack

Fast-Food Place: none

Month: November

Movie: too many

Juice: cranberry,grapefruit, guava, passionfruit.

Finger: middle

Breakfast: brown rice, fruit, & some rice milk

Favorite cartoon character: tweety
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Have you ever
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Given anyone a bath: yah

Smoked: yep

Bungee: nope

Made yourself throw-up: yeah

Gone skinny dipping: yep

eaten a dog: nope

Put your tongue on a frozen pole: fortunally,no

Broken a bone: yepp, a few

Played truth or dare: yeah...we were all in jr.high

Been in a physical fight: yepp

Been in a police car: yepp

Been on a plane: yes doggie

Come close to dying: yep

been in a sauna: yea

swam in the ocean: yea, i live 2 min from the ocean

Fallen asleep in school: who hasn't

Ran away?: yeah

Broken someone's heart: yea

Cried when someone died: of course.

Cried in school: yea

Fell off your chair: chyeah

stayed up all night waiting for someone to call? no,but ive waited

Saved AIM conversations: haha yep

Saved e-mails: some

Fallen for one of your best friends?: chyeah

Made out with JUST a friend?: hah no

Used someone: yeah

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--------------------------------------What is...--------------------
Your good luck charm: my irish blood

Best song you ever heard: too many to name.

Stupidest thing you have ever done: ah theres a lot

What's your room like: Burgundy&black

Last thing you said: "k bye"

What is beside you: water, my purse, and a pack of smokes

Last thing u ate: vegan noodles

What kind of shampoo do you use?: Paul Mitchell

Best thing that has happened to you this year: change.

Worst thing that has happened to you this year: change.
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Have you ever!?
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Chicken pox: yeah, i was 2 and i have it to my bro.

Sore Throat: chyeah, i smoke & drink

Stitches: yepp

Broken nose: haha surprisingly, no

Believe in love at first sight: no

Like picnics: hell yeah

Like school: no

What schools have you gone to: CES/SCS, Crestview, Maple Park, Dubois, Springfield High,& Carlsbad High

Eat a live hamster for $1,000,000: nope

If you were stuck on an island, what people would you want with you: someone who can get me off the island haha

Who was the last person that called you: Jimmy

Who was the last person you slow danced with: haha my bro

What makes you laugh the most?: a lot of things

What makes you smile?: good memories, people i love being around.

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Who is the last person
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You Kissed?: Nick

You yelled at: My Mom

Who broke your heart: Daniel

Who told you they loved you: My Mama

Is your loudest friend? Cera
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Do you/Are You:
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Do you like filling these out: not really

Do you wear contacts or glases: both

Do you like yourself: somtimes

Do you get along with your family: yeah

Stolen anything over $50: yeah

Obsessive? no

Compulsive? no

Anorexic? no

Suicidal? no
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Final questions
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What are you listening to right now? augustana

What did you do yesterday: kicked it, worked, talked to Jimmy all night, & watched The Outsiders

Hated someone in your family: yup

Gotten any awards: yea

What car do you wish to have? 1957 caddy chevelle

Where do you want to get married? in a big beautiful church or on the clifts in ireland

If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be? you dont need to know

Good driver: yes

Good Singer: shure

Have a lava lamp: no

How many remote controls are in your house: 3-4

Are you double jointed: yeah in my fingers

What do you dream about: stuff

Last time you showered: this morning

Last time you took a bath: i dunno

The last movie you saw at the theatres: uh...click?

Scary or happy movies: both

Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper: if it really came down to it...rootbeer

Mud or Jell-O wrestling: neither

Vanilla or chocolate: both

Skiing or Boarding: BOARDING

fall or winter: FALL

Silver or Gold: white gold or silver

Diamond or pearl: black pearl

Sunset or Sunrise: sunset

Sprite or 7up: 7up

Orange juice or apple juice: orange

Cats or dogs: Dogs

Coffee or tea: both

Phone or in person: in person.

Are you Oldest, middle, youngest or only child: youngest

Indoor or outdoor: outdoor

End Time: 1:17

1wish4you @ 2006-08-24T19:34:00

2006-08-25T02:35:38Z

fuck.
i always screw up.

life never goes as planned.

woot woot

2006-08-24T05:24:01Z

so my bro is home. :) finally after 3 mo or so.
nina & dan are due in october.
i miss my best friend she is my world, and i cant do shit w/o her.
post pics later.
love love

broken

2006-06-13T02:39:10Z

there are so many times where i just shove the pain inside of me and think that it will never come out again. when in all actuallity it comes out with a vengence. for many years now i have done just that and never delt with my problems just ran. it makes you very apathetic to the person you look at in the mirror every morning insted of wanting to be the person you can be and the person that God wants you to be. I am so scared of being close to someone in fear of having them hurt me or misuse my trust. no one is going to save you. You have to change and have God help you change. It is not an overnight thing it takes time. please pray for me while I am trying to change my ways and deal with everything inside of me.
love,kendra

mixed feelings

2006-05-15T14:26:23Z

ugh. boys.
i dunno what to do
if you read this and have my numero then hit me up
cz i need to talk to someone abt it.

1wish4you @ 2006-02-27T15:32:00

2006-02-27T23:35:45Z

life is...well how can you explain it. it has the high highs and the lowest lows. but all in all its great. we are all given more than we need or deserve. i guess theres always something to be thankful for in the end. and there is always someone there for you no matter what happens, even when all others fail, theres god. so live life. Laissez les bons temps rouler.
love you all.

done

2006-02-01T03:42:53Z

its over.

confusion

2006-01-29T23:20:40Z

While nicotene and caffine rule my mind
I sit here wondering why
How long will this all last
Are you the one
That I dream about all night
You leave me wondering why
I leave a red stain on all i touch

Is there something holding you back from me
Or is it just all of my insecurities
I guess time will tell if these questions
Will someday reach the core of it all

I am so unsure of it all
Yet you seem all-knowing
Or is it that we just all want the same thing
I dont have any catchy melodies to express this
While you may have seen me naked and exposed
You never have really seen me at all

Your past loves and heartbreaks
Make you seem distant and cold
I guess time will tell if these questions
Will someday reach the core of it all

ring

2006-01-09T05:21:38Z

YEAH IM ENGAGED.

new year

2006-01-03T04:02:55Z

so, it is the new year and as i look back on all the things that have changed and where i am now it amazes me. this time last year i was breaking up with a guy, very immature, not ready to be a sophmore, preppyish.non good music tastes, not intrested in my future. now-engaged, more mature (but still have a long way to go), ready to get out of high school start college and get married, great music taste, indie style, my future drives me, God is the center of my life now. i am so excited that the new year has started, and i am happy that i am exactly where i want to be.

i hope this year will change us all for the better.

love you all.

1wish4you @ 2005-12-13T22:25:00

2005-12-14T06:26:01Z

[Marital Status]	engaged
[Shoe size]	6
[Parents still together]	nope
[Siblings]	only the best bro- Jared
[Pets]	nada
*FAVORITES*
[Color]	red
[Number]	15
[Animal]	koala
[Drinks]	agua
[Soda]	dr.pepper
[Book]	Lullaby by chuck palahniuk
[Flower]	casablanca lillies
*DO YOU*
[Color your hair?]	yes,but its my natural color right now
[Twirl your hair?]	no
[Have tattoos?]	not yet
[Have Piercings?]	yeah
[Cheat on tests/homework?]	sometimes
[Drink/Smoke?]	yeah
[Like roller coasters?]	love em
[Wish you could live somewhere else?]	o'ahu
[Want more piercings?]	yea
[Like cleaning?]	nope
[Write in cursive or print?]	both
[Own a web cam?]	nope
[Know how to drive?]	yeah haha not very well though
[Own a cell phone?]	yeah
[Ever get off the damn computer?]	yepp
*HAVE U EVER*
[Been in a fist fight?]	yes
[Considered a life of crime?]	no
[Considered being a hooker?]	nope
[Lied to someone?]	yes
[Been in love?]	yeah
[Made out with JUST a friend?]	haha. no
[Been in lust?]	yeah
[Used someone]	no
[Been used?]	yea
[Been cheated on?]	no
[Kicked someone in the nuts?]	yeahh
[Stolen anything?]	yep
[Held a gun]	yeah
*CURRENTS*
[Current clothing]	jeans,tee
[Current mood]	happy
[Current taste]	mint.i have gum in my mouth
[What you currently smell like]	gum
[Current hair]	its up
[Current thing I ought to be doing]	homework
[Current cd in stereo]	The Toasters
[Last book you read]	On The Road- Jack Kerovac
[Last movie you saw]	Buffalo 66
[Last thing you ate]	cookie
[Last person you talked to on the phone]	Daniel :-)
[Do drugs?]	nope
[Believe there is life on other planets?]	uh..i dunno
Remember your first love?]	yes
[Still love him/her?]	as a friend, but he lives far away
[Read the newspaper?]	comics
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]	yeah
[Believe in miracles?]	yeah
[Do well in school?]	yea
[Wear hats]	sometimes
[Hate yourself?]	not really
[Have an obsession?]	music
[Collect anything?]	nope
[Have a best friend?]	Heather,Rachel
[Close friends?]	yeah quite a few
[Like your handwriting?]	no
[Care about looks]	not more than the next person
*LOVE LIFE*
[First crush]	Blaine-kindergarten,real crush i dunno
[First kiss]	Andre-3rd grade
[Do you believe in love at first sight?]	lust at first sight
[Do you believe in "the one?"]	yea
[Are you a tease?]	i have been called one
[Too shy to make the first move?]	no
*ARE U A*
[Daydreamer]	somewhat
[Bitch/Asshole]	no
[sarcastic]	yeahh
[Angel]	no
[Devil]	somewhat
[Shy]	kinda
[Talkative]	yah kinda
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

him

2005-12-11T03:41:45Z

I have so many feelings to express for him.
When i am cooking dinner he will stop me and cook for me, because "i already do too much."
I wake up to him singing "wouldnt it be nice" in my ear, while holding me.
When he looks me in the eyes i see in to his soul, and i know that he really loves me.
He picks me up when i can't walk,
He holds me when i am scared,
He protects me when i am in danger,
He guides me when i cannot see,
He trusts me, and confides in me.
He holds my hand through the night to let me know that i am not alone anymore.
He knows the true me, and sees though the facade.
He is always on my mind and in my heart.
He makes life worth while.
I find comfort and peace when he looks at me and holds me in his arms and whispers,"I will always love you."

keys

2005-12-04T23:38:56Z

so today i locked my self out when i was taking the trash out and it was amazing how God worked it all out. I stood around for 2 hours waiting for someone to help me(my cell was in the house). When finally s a lady (tracy) helped me find the landlord's help. Well I live on the 3rd floor, so we got to the 2nd floor then he lifted me up so i could climb up my railing to get to my house. He never let me fall, and God never lets you down, and always prevails when you are in need.
i am so grateful.
God is so rad.

license

2005-11-26T21:07:42Z

hey kids

2005-10-10T05:47:55Z

long time since i updated this sucka so we'll start with this weekend. i went to disney land with pam. then i hung out with david. i love him mucho. i love my friends they are the shit. hah my "best"friend is really 2 faced so i kinda dont trust her as much anymore which has put me in kinda a bad mood. :-( amyways. i have been to the beach a lot at night and i might join band and drop choir i dunno though.
heres some pics.
david
us and out comical kiss(we were being dorks)
us.
ooh in the last pic is my homecoming dress hah but im not going so i stole it haha im so cheap.
oh and tues 10- spot on MTV augustana is a guest. WATCH IT.
love you all

ugh.

2005-09-06T05:47:35Z

so...yeah i just spent a RAH-Diculious weekend. but before i tell you about that i just want to get out that i HATE people that think the world revolves around them. ugh bughs the freaking crap out of me! oko so anyways i go to pams house and then david,grey,garland,camille,ian,wendy,eric,and mike all came over and we had a halo sesh.then garland,camille, and mike left, and grey and i baked a cake, and decorated it.then grey wendy and i went streaking, which weas hilarious. then we all made s'mores, and watched sin city. while they were all watching sin city grey and i were in the kitchen cleaning up, and i was looking for cat food and foud peach shanapps<--sp and grey, wendy and i got drunk, and then david,eric and i went and got beers and we all went to a park and got drunk and some got high too. so then we came back to pams house all wasted as hell and we watched finding nemo and went to the beach to watch the sunrise,and everyone passed out at pamsaround 6am. so then we all woke up at noon and made pancakes/coffee at 4pm is cuz were lame, and chilled.it was insane. i love them all so much haha.
yeah so hope your labor day wknd was just as fun.
love ya
peace out.

coincidince

2005-08-29T05:21:50Z

I DONT THINK ITS A COINCIDINCE!

my confessions

2005-08-28T04:01:33Z

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Emo Boyfriend
Name
DOB
Favourite Color
His Name	David
His Looks/Style	Shaggy black hair, brown eyes, wears eyeliner, really skinny, tan, lip ring, band t-shirts, tight pants, and converse
How you met	CD Store
How he tells you he loves you	Sits outside your house at 2 in the morning and plays guitar and sings (very well) "Only One" by Yellowcard
What he calls you	Pookie
How far you've gone	just kissing and holding hands blush

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